Complicated yet confused
I could not feel any existence of mine eversince my life turned to be an ordinary. Was it of greed or desire? I could not think of any. What is life? I confused.
I was afraid and soon annoyed when I noticed I cared for hoping the same thing in return. I always look deep inside my heart. I always want to improve and make myself to be better. But I failed. When I found out that my mind appeared unhealthy obsessions, I felt ashamed.
I might have been hoping a lot from myself . It really stressed me. I could not stand myself for doing nothing and keeping the same route always. I knew, I could not accept for who I am . I want to be happy . I was really happy for the past few months but soon, the melancholy feelings conquered me again. The situation rotated in a same way and this really made me exhausted. I could not stand how the feelings playing a fool on me. I want to overcome all these, but how?
I must have been too free nowadays, I reckon. Maybe that is why the feelings managed to fool me during time to time. I might getting myself too complicated. Being simple is always what I wish. Maybe, I should fill my life with different elements. Always in grey will only upset me.
Please release my soul. I am seeking for freedom. I am seeking for a better tomorrow. Pray for me. Bless me.
Soul, are you joining me?
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Fei hao was here..
